#100daysofwhy 24-31

24. Would be nice to pain my toenails comfortably
25. Smaller divot in the bed
26. Stop avoiding shopping for clothes
27. Stop avoiding sex
28. Be able to cross my legs again
29. Look younger than my age
30. Not be embarrassed at the doctor
31. Be able to do Just Dance

#100daysofwhy Day 23

23 - Hate getting grease stains on the belly of my shirts

#100daysofwhy Days 10-22

10 - Fit into amusement park ride seats
11 - Fit into theater/stadium seats
12 - Shop in normal clothes stores
13 - No heart palpitations
14 - No heartburn
15 - To prevent diverticulitis
16 - Rings don't fit
17 - Go to a waterpark without feeling embarrassed
18 - Be able to go up and down stairs at home without getting out of breath
19 - Save money on eating out and alcohol
20 - Take family photos again
21 - Look forward to social events
22 - I want to celebrate my 50th birthday eventually

#100DaysOfWhy - Days 2-9

#2 I'm tired of my arms feeling uncomfortable when they're just down at my sides
#3 Plus size clothes are ugly
#4 I get cramps when I bend over or twist
#5 I want to zip my tall boots
#6 I have several cute winter coats I want to wear
#7 The stairs on the way to/from Wild games
#8 Not having to wear shorts under skirts in the summer
#9  Being able to get out of a camp chair without trouble

#100daysofwhy - Day 1

To set a better example for my kids

Weight Watchers - Again?!

It's Day 3 of WW, Day 1 of Sober October, and I'm hungry. Time for some reminders of why I'm doing this to for myself: Cramped muscles when I simply bend over. Ugly clothes. Overflowing a seat at Xcel Energy Center. Taking the elevator instead of the stairs. Avoiding photos. Heart palpitations. There are so many more, but I'll list them in a later post.

Today, I'm losing weight. That feels okay -- not good, just okay, but better than feeling BAD. I'll need some results on the scale to feel GOOD, I think, but that will come. It's been a long time since I've been genuinely hungry, so I'm sort of lingering on that before I eat anything. I need to relearn what is actually satisfying while not giving in to my indulgent, emotional-eating self.

It will be a long haul, so my first goal is 10% -- still a lot, 24 pounds, but possibly doable by New Year's. 10% is when I knew I could do it the first time I did WW, so we'll see if it sticks this time around with that as a first target. Not baby steps, I don't seem to do well with those!

Memory loss

Just experienced a 5-second burst of memory loss. Watching TV,  one character mentioned another main character's name, and I couldn't connect who they were talking about. It's one thing to not catch a name, but completely another to viscerally know that you SHOULD know who was being discussed, it's there but you can't reach it. I really, really hope this is not the first post in one of those stories that just makes you sad.